Postcards for John
A one-sided conversation with that guy you can't seem to communicate with.
31 December 2015
New year
It seems like you still plan to be part of my life in 2016.
What will the new year have in store for us? Is it possible we write it differently this time?
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29 December 2015
Things left unsaid
You don't know how much words I have saved in drafts that I want to send you.
To tell you off. To tell you how much you've hurt me. To tell you to stop wasting my time.
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28 December 2015
Ambiguity
Once again, your messages are laced with ambiguity designed to draw me in.
Or at least my makeup’s weakness is its magnetic pull.
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24 December 2015
You miss me, you said.
Your message sent the day after which I only got today.
You miss me, you said. You confuse me, you did.
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23 December 2015
All things end
Thoughts are on closing out the projects we were supposed to be doing together.
Thinking of how to go about doing all of it without the drama.
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22 December 2015
Hung on hope
I had hoped you’d remember.
Up to the last minute, I’d held on to the hope that I’d hear from you.
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15 December 2015
Was it just me?
Whenever I chance on remembering how much of how you treated me hurt -- an onslaught of questions would come rushing in pursuit.
I’d wonder if you’ve ever had a single honest relationship. Or it was just me.
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11 December 2015
Would I write for you?
What if you can read my thoughts?
What if you stumble upon the words I’ve written?
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30 November 2015
Imagined affection
You come in and out of my life like it’s just a game.
Was any of it real?
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21 November 2015
Let me make you happy this way
I used to send you photos I’ve taken of myself.
It was my way of connecting with you even when we’re not together.
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20 November 2015
Photos
Printed out two photos today.
It’s my way of keeping memories of you.
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Bad day
I had another misunderstanding with my mom earlier today.
I wish you’re really here to make me feel a little better.
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19 November 2015
Dirty
As I was cleaning the cage of my dog earlier today, a thought came to mind.
With my hands deep in dog shit and years of muck, I couldn’t help but wonder:
do you deserve someone who does something like that?
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18 November 2015
Make believe
As I go about the work around the house, I imagine I'm doing it to the house you'll come home to.
Do you think it's crazy?
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16 November 2015
You make me smile
Do you know that each time I hear from you, you fill me with such hope for life?
You make me smile.
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15 November 2015
Yearning
An image came to me a few nights ago that represents how I feel about you.
I was curled up, with my head resting on your chest, in your arms. Cocooned in the warmth, enveloped in your scent.
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09 November 2015
Waiting game
Will it always be like this?
If I adjust to how you want things to go, how you pace things, will this relationship go smoother?
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07 November 2015
Changes: Moving forward
Venturing into a few changes starting tomorrow.
Kicking a nasty habit and sorting out a few things on how I go about each day.
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06 November 2015
Next week
I heard from you today.
Seems like it’s not over after all.
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05 November 2015
Wasted time
I wonder — did I just waste the last 2 years of my life?
I was on an upward trend. Now, I’m at an inferior state than when I first started.
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Today's anger
Then there was this sudden urge to lash out.
I’m angry.
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04 November 2015
Silence. It's over.
The silence can only mean one thing for me — it’s over.
There is no point talking when it is, right?
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02 November 2015
Heartbreak and goodbyes
My heart breaks each time I think of what's happening to us.
I feel a crippling hopelessness.
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31 October 2015
Dream: Call and decisions
I had a dream about you recently.
You called me on Skype. You wanted to tell me something.
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Hurting
What did I ever do to you?
Do you ever stop to think that you’re hurting me?
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